What song fits my problem?

i love these two amazing guys... one is my boyfriend, and the other i met while me and my bf were split up. And yeah i love this guy so much, but i also love my boyfriend, and i'm having trouble, picking one, i know it seems like i picked my boyfriend, but no im still going back and forth in my mind, Deric stole my heart with a kiss, While me and Rudy have memories already.... think of it like that gay movie twilight where she's like "i never told you i loved you because i knew it would never be enough" or something like that? well yeah the reason i want a song is because it helps me relax hearing a song about my problem.... so please help.